I'll like to start this blog with a little story...
On Saturday the 3rd of April 2010 I went to Northampton town clubbing to celebrate AF's 19th Birthday, I'm not going to lie - the whole clubbing experience was awful the best bit was catching up and chatting with friends that I haven't seen in ages. At around 2 O'clock, Scott P, Jack and I started to walk around town and our conversation got to the point where we were talking about us as people, and how we are slightly different people when we are at university. Well Scott and I found this out as Jack isn't at uni yet. But Jack did say that he is looking forward to re-inventing himself at uni.
It's strange, some people I can imagine being the same no matter where they go and no matter what environment they are in. But, people like me, like my friend Scott and probably like Jack, were/are trying to "break free" and yeah that is a High School musical reference! In my home town, people constantly perceive me as what they've always known me, there wasn't any room to grow and if I decided to do something new, something not me at all I would care too much about what everyone thought - bad I know.
Going to university was definitely what I needed. People say "I wish I could just hit rewind and redo that whole event." But for me uni was even better! Fuck a rewind button, let’s hit Restart!
So now I (and Scott as well) seem to have two identities like a Uni Tim and Home Tim - okay that’s a little extreme, but there seems to be more sides to me nonetheless. The hardest thing is this, my readers - bringing the two together, it seems that Home Tim stays with me whilst I'm at home but sometimes Uni Tim comes out to play when I'm with my closest friends - so maybe it’s not an identity and an idea of how I'm perceived thing, but the idea of comfort and safety??
Whatever it is I aim to get rid of all these different Tim's and just have Tim! Because the idea of a lot of different versions of me whilst I'm with different groups of friends seems all too fake and I don't like that, however, this process maybe quite messy and difficult but still it should be fun.
Have you ever thought about multiple you's? Are you one of those that needed to "break free" or have you been constant throughout? Do you think you changed when you went to uni? Was it in a good or a bad way?
